I'm feeling depressed and alone. I'm feeling attacked for my feelings. I feel like if no one thinks I matter, then why should I even be here. I know I shouldn't let other people's words effect me. But it is so hard. It makes me feel so worthless. Like why should I care? I just want to cut myself. Want to go after my wrists. I don't want to take care of myself or be nice to myself. I don't feel like I can tell my T because she wants me to be nice to myself, and I feel like I would be disappointing her if I told her. I don't want to disappoint her. I feel so awful. I feel like I'm failing at life.