I have never had a real relationship before and i'm 25. Except for those kind that your friends set up for you when you're in school. You hold hands and that's about it. Then after a week or two you get your friends to tell the guy that 'you don't want to go out anymore.' I did kiss one of the guys (who i didn't even really know) a few times and I never felt so disgusting in my whole life. That was about 8 years ago.
I always had these amazing ideas of what my husband would be like and told myself that he had to be these certain things or i wouldn't be open to having a relationship. It turns out that this guy that I think I'm in love with doesn't meet up to all of those plans i had. But he is a really beautiful person. He is far from perfect but so am I. He's funny and he thinks I'm funny. That is totally hilarious. I'm pretty sure that he likes me too. I can't stop thinking about him. I keep planning the wedding and thinking about what it will be like living with him. I just can't get him out of my head. I try to not follow my feelings in this. I add up all the pros and cons because I realise that jumping into a relationship is not just something i should take lightly.
I haven't exactly been very well so I don't want to get involved without sorting out my issues first. Second thing is that he hasn't got a job at the moment, although he is studying. His family are not exactly normal. But I still can't help thinking that maybe he is the one for me. I like him even though he doesn't meet my original list. I have never been in this spot before. I wonder whether I should ask him out for dinner or something. I would rather he did but I can't be bothered waiting around. He might be worried about asking me. I'm not worried about asking him. lol. Some advice please?????