"Is he crazy or am I just a no good, unfeeling, lazy evil woman?" Neither one is correct but it is what you are living right now. I assume you love him. First and foremost protect your child from this abuse. It is abuse when he attacks you, but try if you can to understand it is not you who he attacks but is his. Seperate yourself from his stuff. Your child is the absolute first one you need to consider in this situation. Next, after you have made your child safe(have your parents take him, a friend, someone you trust), you need to look at why you are willing to be subjected to ridicule and verbal abuse. Seek counseling and then you will be able to understand your husband's attack on you and most importantly your willingness in accepting this behavior. I had a wonderful therapist who said to me "stay where you are until you can't stand it anymore" What can you stand? The verbal abuse to you is probably familiar. If you want to protect your child from the abuse remove them from the home. The amount of the abuse that has already taken place has already affected your child. Seek counseling, first. See someone who can guide you. I pray for the best outcome. rainstouch