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Nupoet64 · Oct 13, 2010, 11:00 AM

Krazy, I have had one hynotherapy session. We did not open up "everything", we explored one partial memory that I was getting, but was having all the emotions and very little visual memory on. It went quite well. I was so distraught before we started....from all the panic and anxiety...I had T put a trash can next to the chair, in case I threw up. That is how visceral the emotions were prior to the session.
I foud out what the things I was getting, like "Hate lives in the blue dress", images of a blue dress, images of lots of blood, etc. It helped me alot, but it was not an exploration of my lifetime of abuse, it was very focused.
But I have been in training with hypnosis since I was a small girl.My grandfather was a hypnotist. He taught me to use self-hypnosis when I was very young. I think he understood that I was in a dangerous home, but he was unableto save me. He taught me ways to cope. Things a small child could understand. Right or wrong, it protected me. I use self-hypnosis now, when something is coming up. I also use meditation...the two are very similar.
But, I am 46 and have been doing this since I was about 6. I have had alot of practice.
Also, no one can make a person go against their own moral fiber.
Please be careful and safe. I understand about the years of therapy....I have been actively trying to heal since I was 18. I had alot ofset-backs,in that most of my therapists had no idea how to help me. In all those years, only 3 that I can say have really helped.
GL to u....I also hate that feeling of someone inside knowing everything and I cannot remember much of my childhood.
It is like someone made a movie of mylife, edited out the bland parts and set them aside...took the edited movie away and left me with bland clips....the bits and pieces that do not go together.
Many safe hugs and support in whatever you decide to do. Sometimes I think the Ts are bit cautious, for our safety. But there are those of us that are determined and STRONG!! We HAVE to know. We are ready for the medicine...the bad...the ugly...the BS...to get it out, cleared, processed and heal it. I understand that too. I tend to move faster than my T wants me too, lol.