Thank you fuzzy. Yes, I think it is really hard for people who have a supportive mental health service to understand what ours is like in the uk. The gratitude for whatever crumbs of support I get is hard to fight against.

Demanding - yes, it makes sense but is not something I find easy to do. But my friend from church phoned this morning and has offered to come to the hospital with me for my next appt so maybe I will manage it.

I know what youa re saying aobut not getting enough help. Thing is, from most people's point of view if I am working I can't be that "ill", you know. Not many people realise how much I put the lid on stuff to enable me to cope. I can't really keep the lid on at the moment. Partly cos the mental health stuff is encroaching on the work time, and that makes it hard to compartmentalise them as I have learnt to do.

thanks for caring
C