|
Oct 13, 2010, 08:18 PM
|
 |
dolphin elder
Chat Leader
|
|
Member Since: May 2008
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 4,718
|
|
***WARNING**** Possible Triggers....Were so incrediable sick of dealing with all this Pain. My Pain looks like thick tar so sticky and hot and it feels it has stuck to every part of me.
Then I have the emotional pain of being hurt again after 4 years of intense 3 times a week if not in an in-patient treatment place. The amount of pain of dealing with all these in depths layers of trapped pain even and we center ourselves realizing getting overwehlmed by all this pain will only cause more Pain...
We "free associated" journaled... and we felt it was fitting to add it here.
When we can't tolerate the Desperation were so tempted to concentrate on isolation, were feeling unable to ground as all of this Grief and Pain leads us easily into self-destruction!
We were the ones who believed in the FICTION that We were the ones who brought on the reactions which caused much darker energies go into action. When you are yound you don't know where it comes from we hear what is said and we believed what we were told, it's real hard to relearn when remembrace is COLD.......It's hard to see beauty as the flower unfolds when the thorns are what our inside kids holds in there hands. It's easy to see something painful enacted with what is inside is too raw to embrace the Rage Must Be Redirected or Pain upon Pain is what we will trace! Pain upon Pain will not rid us of danger if we Lose control we be like the strangers who we once trusted them long before this..........
WERE ALL Still Disconnected.... How Could THEY DO THis to ME?!?!
The weight is the wound is the burden we bear and something this Heavy is SO very Hard for Us, Crew to share but we can't deliver the same energy allowing this Powerful, Sorrowful Anger that put Us in danger before.... we have to uncover this potential Poison and REACH out to Others before it's too Late, before parts of my system turns out our lights
and we can't get back to the light and our hearts will remain frozen so
Today we Choose To Try and Rescue Our system Crew to rescue our Fate.
  
Thank you for reading,
Crew
__________________
later
|