Dearest One,

I feel for you, I ask you to look at what you wrote above. This sentence shows clearly that you reached out after you told him of the indiscretion with the hope of keeping him close and in the hopes of having his love for you reaffirmed

You had opened up and spoke of something which had the potential to rend your marriage completely and the need for him to be close is the need for him to want you and forgive you for the indiscretion

So let any confusion of why you felt that way, completely dissolve. In truth there is silence and no confused thoughts. But give him time to digest this because it is to him like digesting bone

His actions in finding a woman and bringing her home is surely to hurt you and is lashing out at you to put up with it and see how it causes you to feel.

Only you can decide if you two are to remain wed. I understand his hurt but I do not understand his tit for tat thinking. Does this mean that when ever he thinks of the thing you did, he is going out to find a wench? That is not balanced and is not healthy, but please be prepared to tell him what you are thinking about this. Two wrongs do not make a right

Morgana