My issue with relationships...
I've never had one. I've never even really had girl-friends. I can count on one hand how many women (not including my mom and her friends) I've HUGGED. I'm not even sure I know how to hug with passion or whatnot.

I'm a virgin. I've never really been on a date. I've never connected with a woman. I dont know why. I'm starting to feel like I'm missing something big in my life. I....I guess I long for feminine presence. This isn't about sex. Well, sure that IS on the to-do list but it's not my main focus.

Socially...
I dont really have a "social circle" I've got a couple friends that I've known for YEARS, since I was small. They all pretty much have the same issues with women as I do less one who just got married.

I dont really feel that heart pounding anxiousness very much. I can and do smile and say hi to people as I pass them on the street. I can even shake their hand occasionally. However, I have a hard time making friends. I feel like I have nothing to really say to them. I can talk with them about them. Ask them what they do, if they have kids, how they like their work..etc. But it's like...... I dont know... Like I need to be different. I go though "OK, what do I say now" times. It's like I need to be more interesting. More knowledgeable. Have more experiences. Have more hobbies. Have more friends. If I could somehow download the sum knowledge of the universe in my head, I would do fine. These will help me talk about things. What do people talk about. I dont even like facebook becouse I have nothing to put on there. Who cares what I ate for breakfast?

Sometimes I feel braindead. Like I dont really have the words. But I do have a feeling or a thought or something...

I feel like I need to be in charge, or 100% knowledgeable to really be me otherwise I'm quiet or so soft and maybe..timid?