aww, thank you all so much for the hugs. i took one tablet and then fell asleep for 8.5hrs. i did need the sleep, but now it's almost midnight, and i'm worried i'll struggle getting back to bed.

pdoc said i can take 3 a day, though, so i might take another to help me keep asleep.

austin-t & i have been dealing with triggers recently, and this anxiety does feel very ptsd-ish, so maybe something just got stirred up. also i just started the old meds yesterday, and that always give me night-time panic attacks when i'm adjusting, so it's probably a combo of both.

im actually surprisingly tired again. time for milk and bed.

thank you all for helping to add to this safe space. when i get down i need people around me, where i can just be, and now that im not at home anymore i dont really have a replacement.