Sannah , ive second guessed that conversation so many times - i dont know ... he was fairly persistant about a photo - i siad oh i only use this for games and i say hi to anyone that says hi to me
I said i liked the kitty photo and made a joke about not putting a photo up as i didnt want to scare anyone - he said somethign like well ahve you vistied my proofile and seen my photo? i said no i dont visit peoples profiles - he asked again about a photo and i said hey i already said i like the kitty - and he said well its only fair youve seen my photo and its not for everyone its for me - - and its not like im asking for nude photos of you ...
i guess that made me triggery - but maybe thats how guys talk to girls? did he think i was flirting wiht him when i joked about my photo - he seems to be on there a lot now when im on and i dont like it but hes never said anything bad outright ..
the dirty talk was somthing like.... me in black him in blue
Hi X
HI
how are you
good and you?
do you like to talk dirty?
NO
then neither do i
then the conversation was a normal one about weather and such and he had told me the first time we talked that he had met a woman online and she had turned out to be married and he was heart broken and i had tried to be supportive..... maybe that gave him the wrong impression....
sassyseattle - i agree about the respect thing...sighs.....its like i have to be respectful to him ...even if i dont feel right about it - it makes me feel sick inside now - but he didnt actually say anythign wrong didhe...thats why i think im over reacting...... its close to the anniv of the attack that gave me PTSD and im hyper vigilent and double guessing everything
Damn ! i feel like im drowning!!!!
why cant i just pretend i didnt see it .... but i cant
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet
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