((((((((((((tree)))))))))))))

you don't have to find grace, tree. it will find you. all you can do is open up and receive it. it's right there holding it's arms wide just like T did in your session. you did nothing wrong as a child tree. this was not your fault. it is going to be hard and confusing to accept that for awhile and then eventually you will see that this is the truth. i think that when you accept that truth you will see real freedom.