Hi fuzzy,
I'm sorry you're struggling so much right now. It's not something any of us ever "sign up for." No one deserves it. Take care of yourself, and try to go easy on yourself, too.

And if you have any opportunity to do light therapy, maybe that can help? My heritage is from parts of the world where this is much less light (such as England and Scandinavia) than in more southern areas. This makes me more susceptible to depression and sleep problems from fall to spring. Light therapy has helped me.

(((fuzzy)))

gg