You are so brave. I know that right now you probably won't be able to hear that and prehaps it is not something you
want to hear right now also.... But i do appreciate you posting about your therapy session and how difficult it has been for you but how you survived through it. That means a lot to me.
You were so brave to allow yourself to be seen. I believe, although you may not feel it right now, the grace you are searching for is being held within you. It shines out from within you. I see it.
I hope I've not said anything wrong, I don't ever want to hurt anyone but i'm aware i'm not great at knowing what to say. Take care of yourself.