The guy who messed up my life is in prison now...As of last week...Phew....I lost a lot of time to this (met him in May 2004)...Hard to believe one day of walking into that store where he worked did this - and the one day of being in court - that was the last straw...

....and now I have panic attacks, became agaoraphobic when I went to court, and I am depressed. But I am feeling better...like I am waking up...since he was put away a few days ago...but I have been unable to function for 10 mo now - today I was out all day...it was nice.

Has anyone else dealt with these feelings? Of "waking up" after being "asleep" (I was supposedly "shell-shocked" after seeing him in court) for a really REALLY long time...I mentioned this elsewhere...

My memory is pretty bad most of the time Lately

The road back (to myself) seems so long I am kind of scared...