Thank you everyone for your reply's. I just finished a 14.5 hour day at work. I had a lot of time working alone to give this all some thought. One of the reasons I feel so uncomfortable, besides the fact that I am embarrassed and humilated, is that I have portrayed this image of being or at least trying to be perfect. My whole life I just want to please please please. I spend all my energy on never making a mistake. I take complete ownership if I do make a mistake, but I crumble internally.
I have cried many sessions and have laughed many sessions with my T. She is amazing. I know she will be ok with anything I bring up, but it will all make me look disgusting and more of a failure then I already do.
AAAHHH this is so frustrating. I tear up just thinking about her thinking any less of me.
Sorry for the long ramble.