First, I want to thank all you guys. You are being really nice and, well, I dont feel as if I am being judged. Its not what I expected. Plus Im glad you didn't take my post as whining about my life because I was scared it was going to come off that way.

And yes, there is a place on campus where I could go see a therapist if that is what I desire, but I still have to admit that I don't want to go talk to a stranger about my problems and just hope that they will understand. I mean, that kind of sounds ironic since I am talking to strangers on here but I felt there was a greater chance of acceptance here... If that makes any sense. But I do hope to get up the courage one day to go in and do what's right for me.

And as far as my roommate goes.. Well we are talking again. So thats a plus. But its not like it was before I told her. I think i am just going to avoid that topic like the plague from now on. Our friendship seems to work better that way. Although i am not sure I will be able to trust her fully again. At least not enough to tell her all the things that I want to. I still feel like she would listen but I cant trust that she will be accepting.. Not after the way she reacted when I tried to confide in her the first time. Is that wrong?

Thanks again..