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Sometimes when I have so many things running through my head and don't know where to start I just start by saying I don't know where to start, and that I feel overwhelmed.

And often what happens, is that what comes up is something that wasn't even on the "list". When I saw T on Monday, I was really just going because I felt overwhelmed and like there was too much stuff going on in my life...and somehow what we got to was that I was having expectations for this month that weren't being met (that I would be okay if I tried hard enough) and it was freaking me out and making everything else huger. And I ended up kind of having to accept where I'm at and start dealing with the things I'm running from.

When I went INTO the session, my list was more like "I have to deal with my alcoholic mom, my H is being mean, I'm overwhelmed by having too many things to do in a day, etc" - and it all felt big, and real, and important, and hard. But by letting the session just kind of flow, and letting myself be honest with myself and with T, we were able to get to the REAL issue.

Stay open. Be honest.

For me, no matter what happens in session, the most important thing in the end is that I really connect with T. Let yourself connect

Good luck with your session