If your T allows emails, then I say spill the beans. You need to have the emotional venting. Just let it all go and tell her what you feel. I do that with my T because he allows it. And I would not make it without that. One day soon I will be able to make it without emailing him. But I NEED my T to be there when I can't take the weight on my own. Even if your T doesn't respond much, just the act of telling can be strong medicine. Just stay within the boundary your T has set.