I feel like a criminal. People always get the wrong impression about me and think that I am a better person than I really am.

I put on this automatic "good person" act, and a part of me wishes that people could see through that as we meet, like an explosion rather than a slow burn. It would be messy and I would be blown to pieces, but at least it wouldn't take as long.

The other part of me is glad that I can fool people so easily because then sometimes I can pretend that there are people who really love me for awhile.

Maybe people just see what they want to see, because if they allowed themselves to believe the truth, they would be mad at themselves for being fooled for so long and for allowing themselves to get too close to me.

I don't know what I hope to gain from making this thread. I guess it can serve as a caution to people who want to chat with me or for people who read my post history.