Caroline,
You do try, I know you do. And you do the most that you can. Please dont feel that your are under pressure to perform or suddelny have things sorted cos we all know thats not how it works. It a long and hard road, and we all fall a few time, give up, say were not doing any more, then get right back on again. So your doing just fine as you are Caroline.
Keep travelling forward!
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