Monday I will be starting with a new T. It's been about a month since my old T and I called it quits. It's been so hard living without my T. I feel my life has been a big hugh mess. I even tried going to a new T but she just laughed at everything I said. Talk about a set back.

Do I trust new T? Should I trust new T?? My fears, worries, child inside me all say no, don't trust I will be hurt again and again and again.
My husband hates that I am going to a new T. I know I shouldn't care what he thinks. I don't want my husband mad either.

I'm sitting here try to ask myself why I am posting this. I don't even know where to go with it. What is so wrong with me that I can't make a decision? Why can't I just be an emotionally healthy person.

Monday will be the end if I can't sit with a new T. I don't know where else to turn to if I can't do this on Monday.