I don't really know how I feel about myself, everyday I need to remind myself about all the things I'm good in but I usually stay neutral about it.. meaning I'm not bragging or thinking I'm better or deserving, but I don't feel worthless either. I'm just sort of like "Okay, this is what I am. What's the big deal?"

I do care about my brother, no matter how messed up I get I can't bring people down with me. Putting my brother on the bus to school is more than just I care for his education.. it is the whole base that keeps my family afloat. For years now my Dad had been coming to work late just so he could bring my brother to school, but since they got new owners, they got new rules and they have put their foot down and said he would be fired if he comes late again. So I have to put my brother on the bus, for if my Dad does it and gets fired, it's pretty much over for my family.

My brother doesn't really understand anything, to be honest. He's 9 years old but he was diagnosed with MID and slight Autism. So he just doesn't really.. get it. He doesn't ask me if I went to school ever, he doesn't really ask me much of what I did at all or what I do. Usually when we interact it's about him, so I'm sure he doesn't know that I don't go to school.

I've had teachers call my house before, asking to talk to my Dad and I want them to talk so he can explain to them my problem and maybe set something up that could help me, like you said, and I've told him that.. but he'll either ignore their calls or forget about them. It's frustrating, honestly.