YOU MATTER! I don't overly care what those drs say, i don't like drs much, i don't think they always 'get' it unless it is within their medical diagnosis. Please keep taking your meds if they're helping, and if they're not talk and stop them slowly! I want to help....i can understand how isolating it can feel at times but you have here....it may not be much but i hope it helps some to vent. Remember we all here understand that urge, it's horrible, but true.