I just wanted to say that I so understand how scary and anxious I would be too!! I also have been pressured for sometime with an on-line friend about a visit! OMG so far it has been put off. But I cannot tell you the anxiety that goes through me because like you I can do okay via the internet, but in real life to go out and hang out would freak me out totally...Being's that it's a year away is there maybe some family event that you might have planned? Or could you tell them that as much as you would welcome the visit that you cannot be sure that you could schedule something like that yet? At least to help you not be so anxious about it? Sorry I just know how badly this must and can feel...I hope things work out for you soon

Kalisha