Hi naughty noo noo, I'm sorry you're dealing with so much stress. I agree with Landance and Perna that what you are experiencing sounds very much as though it is anxiety-related. I would definitely go to your doctor and see if he can refer you for some counseling. There are specific skills we can learn to help us manage our anxious thoughts better and a trained counselor or therapist can help you with this. They can also give you some guidance about stress reduction techniques. Good luck, and wishing you all the very best!