this is probably the last thing you want to hear, but trust me when i say that teen years are supposed to be kinda confusing, you go through stuff you never did before, its like your body is trying to keep up with your brain, but your brain doesnt know where its going yet, so , yeah, its crazy. but you will get through it.. just be sure you dont do stuff that 'sounds good at the time', like sex with strangers, because what you do now, will last later. like STDs.. pregnant.. you really dont want that..
it sounds like your trying to sleep with strangers hoping one will finnaly 'make sense' in your head, but it doesnt work like that. you will find yourself, but its something you have to grow into. im 43 and i still dont know whats going on in myself, what makes sense to me doesnt to anybody else, so then you question yourself, but never fnd an answer..
yeah, sometimes we dont grow out of it, but please belive me when i say the teen years are the very hardest you'll ever have to deal with. just dont do anything now that will hurt you later..good luck