((((((((((( Calista, Googley, Fuzzy, Phoenix, Sujunew, Sannah ))))))))))))

Yeah - big week. I can't remember all what i said before. But i again presented well to the back up therapist. and that night was more SI. I think that was Wed. Tues i might have mentioned that i spent 3 hours with my estranged abuser that I've not seen in 4years.
Today mom and i are going over to where they just moved my gran (2 blocks from my abusers house). I am kinda in denial about it and still sitting here unshowered and in pjs when I should be leaving in an hour. Thankfully T will be back Monday for our women's group. And tues. And wed. I am glad to see her 3 times in a row.

Oh and my ins LOOKS like it will be ok and covered. I went to a meeting w/ the specialist and they assure me that my caseworker is just being stupid. HOPE HOPE HOPE. Meanwhile I'm just tired. The gal could see i was slipping and told me to go home and take a nap which i did. That was yesterday.

As for today my mind is already trying to put me back to sleep for the day - skip this whole thing. I'm not fond of my gran either (another abuser...course so is my mom) so i can see why my brain is rebelling. But since she is 90 and her life just got upended, I am wanting to try and make things better for her. At least I saved a lot of her things and she wants them.
*breathing*
thanks all for thinking about me through this.