i wish i didn't, these days i live at the puter, even if i get up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom i end up sitting down and chatting for a while. but the distraction of the computer is just about the only thing that takes my mind off my troubles. anything else like reading my mind is too frazzled to concentrate on. the one thing i would recommend if you're not already doing it, is some sort of easy to play online game where you can chat to other people, live people. it really helps not to be alone. and many of them are very non judgemental and very supportive. (I play evony age 1, i could probably find a couple other easy to play ones for you if you'd like)