MUE, I'm not sure why your T is doing this. Is there no one else who can help him with this project? How will you open up to him about the stuff you keep locked away when you are also in a professional relationship, exchanging money, etc? This is so tricky. Has T talked to you about how you feel about the dual relationship? Have you told him that you are not sure how you feel about it? I can see why you are struggling with this.