mixed, i hate to jump in with everyone else because i know there is a part of you that is happy about this development also BUT i really don't think this is going to work very well at all.

austin-t has asked me to do things for him in the past, and i can relate so so so much to the feelings you're expressing. of course our Ts know us well enough to know that we'll do a good job, but we're going to put extra pressure on ourselves because they are our Ts.

like your T, austin-t only asked me because his intentions are genuine - he needed a job done, and he wanted to help me out. like your T, he's also told me there is a job waiting for me (when i've finished my honours year). having gone through the agony of helping him out once (unlike you, i wasn't able to do my work as expected; i was depressed, and when i'm depressed i'm unable to work - austin-t knows this, but still i was letting him down...) i don't think i'd ever want to do it again.

rather - i've told myself that i can accept his job offer, when we've terminated the therapist/client relationship. i would really like to have finished being his client by the end of next year (lolol deli putting a time limit on trauma processing), but it would mean i could then enter into a professional relationship with him and no longer be vulnerable.

although Ts intentions are genuine and caring and coming from a place of wanting to help, it doesn't necessarily mean this is the best thing for you, mixed. T can find someone else to do the work, and you can find a different job with the amazing skills that you have. i really, really dont want to see you enter into this and find that you're T relationship is no longer a safe place for you.