we are trying but the church was the last place in public that we could go and feel safe with a few people. we are just sad cause we do not know what to do. we have so few people that we can just sit and talk to that this last round hurt us alot. we know that all the times that we acted out to stop people from hurting us is what they are still using againts us. all those within are just feeling all the pain of things that have happened. We are in our apartment enjoying waching the world out side our window then we remember that we are not wanted in it then we start crying again. does that make sense?