I wasn't unhappy or upset that she sat there seeing if I was going to add anything. I kind of wanted to, but it was too much. It was somewhat overwhelming just to say that. I really just wanted to hide.

I feel like a freak.

I have all these things going on in my head. And they make me feel even more like a freak.

I just want all the bad/scary thoughts to go away. They are too bad to talk about. I feel like they should never come to light. If I could just make them stop then it would be better. But I know that my T would rather I talk to her about it.

It's all too humiliating.