I don't think I've allowed myself to get as close to anyone IRL as I am toward my T. Not my H, my parents, my kids. Maybe I'm starting to feel very close to my grandchildren. It's sad that I didn't have this with anyone else.

I don't know how to be so close to someone. I don't trust it that my T is letting it happen. It is TOO good and it hurts because it's temporary. I know I keep repeating myself, but I'm trying to understand my feelings and I can't quite put my finger on what they are.