Hi Rohag,

I've never had any suggestion of being bipolar, even from the many therapists and such I've seen.

How soon from the time I notice the feeling til it engulfs me? When I notice it. It isn't a gradual thing...it's a wall I hit. And it exits the same way...poof it's gone.

Rebecca,
You sound a lot like me. My worst depression was about 15 years ago when a major trauma threw me into it head first. Big time suicidal...totally unable to function or think straight...the whole package. Since then it comes and goes.

I'll try to keep a mood chart. But a lot of it follows the schedule of that old trauma, with extras thrown in whenever. At some point I thought it was maybe hormonal, but it's too often for that. If it was only 1x a month, I'd almost be happy, compared to this. 15 years is too darn much.