I do agree, but my thoughts and dreams are still stuck on this. Jesse was always one to be in my dreams every night and these past two weeks, well i've either completely forgotten them as soon as i've woke up or they've been of me going out with his friends and him suffering. it's getting to the point where i dont really wanna go out with him but i wanna see him suffer which is immature of me, really. but even so i'm just yearning for contact in anyway.
I havent been able to sleep because everytime I try my thoughts come in and start making plans for me to figure out what went wrong, why he hates me, how i can make my best friend pretend to hate me and talk to him just so i can figure out the truth, etc. it's such an obsession, and i can feel it getting unhealthier by the second. especially since now my subconsious brain is against me in this too ]:
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