I think a lot of people don't want closeness in their lives. So even if you were willing, all those other people may have little desire to be close to you (or anyone). I think it's hard for a person who wants close relationships to find another person who also wants close relationships. I think a lot of people live on the surface and like it there. Others may not even know there is such a thing as being close and would have no idea how to go about it. Rainbow, that sounds wonderful that your relationship with your grandchildren is deepening. Are you doing anything different to allow that to occur? Are you going to try whatever you are doing with others in your life too? One of the benefits of the T relationship is that it can lead to improved relationships for ourselves out in the real world. It sounds like that is happening for you!

Those are such great questions. I don't know the answers. I would like to have closer relationships with others in my life. I have a close relationship with T, but he knows how to do it. I think many people don't. Now I have learned better how to be close, through my work with T, but the outside world isn't filled with Ts just waiting to have relationships with me. It's like T has trained me how to swim but I live in a waterless world. It does seem pointless sometimes. I guess that's one reason I really don't want to give up therapy. I like having a place I can go for an hour every few weeks and experience closeness with someone. I know that makes my real life sound rather pathetic, but that's how it is.