Hugs, Hi..I am so sorry you are going through this. I am 40 and am mentally and physically ill. Right now I wouldnt be a good parent and I do not think the day will come when I will be able to have a child and be healthy enough..oh yes, isnt it soooo responsible of me to not bring a child into the world for my own selfish reasons? I mean if I changes a few things I could probably be a Mom and then there is the ambivalence that maybe u felt...do I want a child? I am unsure,but I cry a lot about this situation and say maybe I can be a foster Mom or something someday..I feel your pain. I may be missing out on the most important thing in life...then again...is this true? The media is so influential and inundates us with celebrity lifestyles: twins, adoptions, conceiving at 45, all the stars having babies..good grief. I just want to be happy. I dont know if this is helpful or not. I just want you to know that I too look back. I had many opportunities to get married and have a family,but never wanted to give up my freedom and my traveling to/living in different cities. It is a terrible thing, how u feel. I keep thinking, am i going to regret this? one day when I am 50, am I going to be even more depressed? Hang on.....you are not alone.