Thanks everyone for your input. I guess we all have our trials and tribulations that we have gone thru, and will continue to go thru. Everyone different but very much the same. I just keep praying to GOD to bring peace to my mind and sou,l and hope that one day I will find some reason why I chose the path I did and be ok with it. I have my beautiful grandson to spoil now, and without the constant worrying and responsibilities that go along with parenting. I thank GOD for him. He is such a sweet little boy. Only 6 1/2 months old, and he has grandma wrapped. Take care everyone, and again thank you and I wish you all the best.

Nancy