and a good subject it is! i have dealt with this my whole life..sometimes far worse than other times. i find that particularly certain ppl can push my buttons more than others. in therapy my T told me it's old tapes running that are not factual. for the life of me tho they keep on running. one thing i have done that helped was recognizing that family members are particularly good at tapping into my bad tapes. i have to keep a healthy distance from them as a result.
but..other ppl can push those same buttons. it causes me to be depressed. i have tried methods to overcome this but it rears it's ugly head in spite of my efforts. i too stay at home a lot cause it's risky to encounter those same feelings of a lack of self worth.
i so can relate to what you posted. i wish i could give you good advice of things that work for me but i keep returning to that same spot of a lack of self worth in spite of therapy.
i'm going thru a bad time of it right now...thank you for your post. at least i'm not alone in this.