My friend, chemicals are in constant flux in our bodies. They seldom are simply in htier own little statis in complete isolation of that which happens to the rest of us. yes, that what keeps us in depression can feel like it lives a life of its own and sets about building its self perpetuating cycles. Yet at some point, it can be broken and the balance can be altered. Easily? No. Permanently? Probably not. Definitly not in my case. But in no way are you doomed to this forever. please believe that. It seems like that right now, but it's not true, and I know I'm not the only one to say that.
As always, HHUUUUUGGGSSS and all the typos you can carry.