Thanks, everyone....

I don't want to feel upset towards T as if he "did something wrong"....It just seems so innocent...and him wanting to help me get involved in something possibly more rewarding...I don't know. I'm just so conflicted at the moment....still...

I am still going around in circles wondering why this is upsetting me so much...why I have such anxiety and fear....and how I'm blowing his all out of proportion....

...and because of these cruddy feelings, I may be giving up an opportunity to do some great things with T who is so driven and successful...a great role model for me...yet it feels so awful to delve outside of the client/T relationship....I am afraid of learning what he's really like outside of therapy....