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Oct 17, 2010, 04:45 PM
zooropa
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I have a lot of the same feelings going on, rainbow. It is so hard, and so painful. I really feel like just quitting T because it's so huge, but in analyzing that urge in myself I think I see it's because every other close relationship I've had, every other time I've let myself trust someone, it has ended badly. I think I expect this to end badly, too, and so I want to just ruin it myself and get it over with.
Or maybe it's another kind of self-harm: depriving myself of the one unconditionally supportive person I have in my life, because deep down I don't believe I deserve it.
Anyway. This is weighting heavily on my mind this weekend too.
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