Hi Crystalbleach.

Having gone through that kind of trauma is really, really hard. It is tough trying to deal with all these things on your own, it's a good thing to get some help and people to give you some advice. Sexual trauma services are very sensitive to the fears that you mentioned, they know that you are afraid, they know what can heppen. These people are trained to handle these situations. Sometimes victims do feel ashamed of things that happened... sometimes they get coaxed into playing along, but what happened isn't your fault, remember that. I'll think of you this week... keep us posted please.

Pix