It sounds as though you've been let down by people that you relied upon.

Unfortunately, that does happen in life. All sorts of reasons, but it does not matter why no one was there the way that you needed them to be. What does matter is that people who truly do care are out there ~ doing all that they can do to help people through the intense lows in life.

It is hard to see those people when our anger with life consumes our daily lives. Those are times when we need help. Real help ~ taking us to the hospital, being there to talk anytime, etc. Not just a wink and a hug will make you feel better. Sitting down with professionals, to discuss what is happening in your life now (and how you got here) is necessary before you can appreciate tiny comforts in life.

Btw, tiny comforts = (((hugs))), best wishes, etc. These things can help a little bit. But there has to be some hope in life to have the affect they're meant to have.

Please do get help now!