Thanks for the support, everyone. You have no idea how much it means to me to have a place where I can share these things and get genuine feedback - especially knowing that it comes from a place of caring.



Part me wishes and hopes that T and I can work through this in a way that still allows this outside business relationship to work. That has to be an unhealthy way to feel....

I just wish none of this had happened. Or that I just simply didn't feel this way. That I could see T as T in the office...and then see him in a business relationship outside of the office. But I know it's just not that easy.

Or, if the business relationship is something really fruitful...then terminating the T relationship....But even then, I don't know how I could see T as not my T....all the things he knows about me...the feelings I have towards him and the relationship we have...how much more work I have to do in therapy...finding another T and building that relationship....

Everything would change.