i also want to add that it will likely take some time to get back to a place of full trust and that is NOT a reflection of your "blowing it out of proportion," its normal. your strong reaction and ambivalence signal to me that you have a trauma history related to issues of trust and abuse....i would hope that you do not pressure yourself to immediately return to the ease of relationship youve had up to this point. its your therapist's job right now to re-establish safety and WAIT for you to re-acclimate.