Hey Zoo remember you (or I) may never get over this. I think that we have both probably thought about this one through and through. However let me remind you that I have repeatedly (laced with shame and humiliation- how can one not feel that way when bringing this up to T?) talked about this to my t. And the benefits are great. The reassurance and just plain willingness to talk about this as much as I need to are like salve on a wound. I think it is much better to be open in therapy about this because if you don't you will quit. I know because we can't handle those intense feelings. We do go to therapy for many reasons right? talk to her Zoo..........