Jexa,
"My heart swelled with joy and sorrow" there you go again with your capturing of true ambivilance. I think ambivilance is laced in the whole therapy process.

Your T would be oh so proud of you to hear you say that you are using soothing skills and how you are riding the waves of your emotions. My old pdoc once told me the average legnth of an emotion was 17 minutes. I used to tell myself that over and over when I needed to.

I was wondering when you had an appointment with your new T? I think that you are doing a great job right now, however I am wondering if you are going to have some help soon. It can be hard doing this alone. Well you are not alone, you have us, but I am hoping you have an appointment sooner than later.

I know I was going to write to ya'll about my last t session (as an update) but I am just really speechless when I try to put it all together. I was so emotional and now just wiped out and in a fog. Weird, not sure what is going on. Anyhow, let us know how you are doing. I, of course would love to hear more from you.