Oh Wepow,
You told your T you had needs. I am sure this is just light years ahead of where you started. I know that you have had a lot of trauma in your life and that goes with not having your needs met or your needs just blatantly disrespected.

My first couple months in therapy my pdoc said something about me doing what I had to (calling him) to get my needs met and I was like WTF I don't have needs you A#*hole. I was a robot with no needs. At least that is what I thought I was.

Now however I sometimes tell my t straight up in a really dry tone, "S you just aren't meeting my needs." and he laughs. It does feel good to say that doesn't it?

So good job girl. Keep up the good work. It feels good to be connected, it feels good to not feel bad about needs, it feels good to know that your t cares.