why don't you tell her what you've written in your posts here? you could even send them to her. it sounds like maybe you had some bad experiences as a child where telling the truth got you in trouble and now you are afraid of similar reactions. so, now you hid the truth, even if it was innocent, because you're afraid someone will be mad or disapproving or something like that. did you maybe have some incident as a child where you told the truth and weren't believed?